Friendship

I have a friend and its a she. Well coming into a new environment of doing my tertiery study, i have a problem of culture shock and melancholy - no friends and everything is so new. Met this girl who happen to study in the sane course with me and in an hour schat we became very good friends . On the second week of knowing her, i told her i am gay. She was cool about it and never once did she have any thing bad things to say about queers in the world - in fact sometimes she even think that us gays are much better than the straights besides stealing away good looking guys form the girls.

Hours becomes days and days becomes weeks and not for long i hacve known her for some years. I daresay that i trusted her to the extend of surrendering my life to her without worrying. I am always there for her. But just a few weeks back i found out that she have been back stabbing me and gossiping about me among my other friends. And everything seems to just become crystal clear. My other close fren then told me that its like this and he say he told me so not to simply put your trust into someone.

I am a person that treasure friendship more than anything and once a friend always a friend. I am not angry with that girl or trying to revenge or something. i just feel pity, sad and disappointed of her. Does that mean that all these while the time we pillow talk, movies, meet up with each other's friends, doing partime jobs together, sharing dirty little secrets were just an act? i just don't understand