Something i have forgotten

Sometimes when we are so tied down in chasing all those expectations that were set upon us by other people we know; regardless whether they play any important role in our life that makes us to forget how we use to laugh till be cringe on the floor holding our stomach with tears flooding in our eyes; or how we use to enjoy catching tadpoles in a puddle during a raining season; sleepover with friends where we stuffed ourselves with food and later in tears watching some love story or even just take a walk at a quiet playground, kicking some stones on the way and just lay down on a slide and watch the ever changing clouds up above. I haven't done all this since i was 15.

Yet, the recent trip i went made me feel what life is all about again. It is no longer meeting up with deadlines, worrying how people think about me, bills, guys and flirts and many more. That one day trip in Cherating was just about me and my life; Not just work and love but all those simple and minor stuff in between that makes life life which i have not pay much attention on, so much so i have almost forget about.

I had a good long walk along the seaside and occasionally picking up seashells which i find rather odd and nice. Memories flooded me; good ones which makes me ocassionally smilling towards the sea and some sad ones which i stare at my feet...leaving footprints behind - its the past but the mark is still there and i hope like those footprints on the warm sand will soon dissappear, washed by the gentle waves.

I got the chance in catching up with my sleep as i slept all the way from KL to Cherating and later on the beach which i found something i like a lot - a hammock. For a long time since i actually hear the wind whispering playfully where they have been, the sun warms my soul which gives me goosebumps and the waves tickling my feet, awakening my senses. This is life. And

now i have made a mental note to get out the hectic life i am going through and escaped back to mother nature's embrace so that she for one day can make me feel safe, warm and no longer living a mechanical life. Just once a month i will make this effort to go back to her so that i know i am breathing and most important, I am at peace.